Goodbye Singapore, Hello Jakarta...


Gonna update tomorrow..today's just too tired to update one...

12:35 AM(Game set & match)Touch me with your smile

Anyone wishes to guess how long I've not been updating my blog? haha well any regular readers of my blog..well not anymore since they've been bored to open my blog since it's been deserted for about three months or maybe more hahaha...my apologies, the internet in Jakarta seems to be the one whose been de-motivating me from updating my posts..

We went home and thanks to the weather, we were caught in the rain, haha during that rain,I've realised that having a small umbrella isn't a good idea at all haha. Thanks to the rain, I've got flu. Since the hostel were having some meeting regarding their party on 18th August, so I've decided to join Miranda,Anita,Ardisa and Jessica Ang at Great World's Yoshinoya, practically they're studying, however, the temptation made them eat as well, count myself in too Xp. And for the evening, I went to Leslie's house to play basketball. There's Jessica Utami, Leslie, Eric, Ardisa, Miranda, Sandy(Jessica's brother) and eventually Siska and Steffi joined us too. After the basketball, we went to Great World to have our dinner.

Moving on to Sunday..Eric, Leslie and I decided to play pool in Kim Seng Plaza and eventually Cindy and Alfreda came..haha we played for about 2-3 hours and after Alfreda went home, we decided to have our dinner in Great World City's food court, in the same time Jenny joined us as well. However, since at the hostel there's someone starving, I decided to take away my own food and also bought a packet of chicken rice for Siska, I decided to take my leave and then quickly ran to the bus stop to wait for the bus. Waiting for the bus 175 is just so friggin long! I even reached the hostel just when the clock reached 10pm sharp..and anyway I'm really in fault to make Siska waiting for her dinner. We had our 'late' dinner after that.

Moving on to Monday, I went to Henderson Secondary to have lunch with Miranda and Anita at nearby chicken rice stall. Anita left for her art class and then Siska and Steffi came, Miranda and I decided to join them to go Bugis' Popular bookstore to buy some assesment books, and oh yes thanks to FRANSISKA for her acting and being unstoppable in calling out her own guardian name...zzzzzzzzzz stress dech!

After Bugis, Steffi and Siska left Miranda and I and so we continued to meet Jenny at Red Hill MRT station and then to fetch Cindy. Finally, we went to Leslie's house for basketball.

What the heck! It's 2.15 am already...
I gotta stop here now..
Siskat gara2 loe nich jadi tidur malam dech! grrrrrr!

Night..urm i mean morning everyone =)

12:05 AM(Game set & match)Touch me with your smile

It's hilarious that life's is not what we always wanted..

Even though we've got that determination,confidence and hardwork..it's still hard to believe that the conclusion is not the same as what we think during the process, which means disappointment. Well, yeah what will you do when it came to this? It's surprising for me that I've been through this kind of disappointment and I've been able to cope with this, again through something unrelated such as laughing.

Yes, I do agree that love is sometimes painful especially when we've received some disappointment. We did lots of sacrifices and whatever it is, and yet even though we thought that we won that particular person's heart, eventually the result will come to NIL. Eiits! hold on, that's what many people think, but if we all should realise that it is rude to say that result is NIL.. Commonly, people will say that even though we've failed we will get some experience..fine, that's one of the reasons why it's not NIL, but the real reason why it's not NIL is that we need to appreciate on what they have done to you. Forget about the disappointment he/she gave to us, forget the painful past he/she gave to us, why not reminisce the events when he/she made us happy?..

It's rude that we actually forget all his/her good deeds or something that he/she have already done to make us happy.. The worst case if he/she did nothing good to us..well just the feeling itself (I'm referring to the feeling of liking him/her) is something that you should appreciate.. He/she might never care about on how we appreciate him/she or watever..but REMEMBER! this is for yourself not for the person you like...we give him/her respect, and in the same time we're comforting ourself..

Why I'm talking about this is because of a feeling called 'Jealousy'.. jealousy is something that make us to forget the good deeds and what we should appreciate of the person we like or have crush. Why? Well..it will actually make us blind, not sight but our heart..you will always think that you're losing now, which is actually not..but jealousy will gradually make you lose by being jealous. Jealousy leds a person to be moody, unstable, violent and being weird by doing something unexpected that our friends or even the person whom we like. This will make he/she feel illfeel and eventually all our past effort will be wasted just like that..all because of jealosy...
Sometimes jealousy might even led ourself to choose to give up...

Give up? That's so uncool.. There's two common mistake that teenagers usually do.. Firstly, when you give up before you even start on what you gonna do.. I understand,we never ever want to get any pain or disappointment..but if you never fall into the darkness, how can you find the new light? In our life, it is essential to replace our current and old light.. you can only keep a light forever when you really think that it will never led ourself to the deepest darkness.Never ever keep the light that betrayed us. So instead of giving up even before we start, so might as well we try it and whatever that will happen to us, just remember..it is something that we should really appreciate..

" Light led to darkness, darkness led to light"

Secondly, it is when you give up when you're close to win it... Ironically, we will never know that we're close to win it..hilarious.. Even though it's hard to know whether we're winning or losing, it will still be uncool if we give up before we really confirmed that we're goin to lose it. Instead of that, why can't we just think that we're goin to win it? Believe me, just think that you're winning it, and eventually you'll prevent yourself from being moody and do something that might the person whom you like to lose respect to you..so just think that you're winning it, don't let jealousy get over you. Never give up till you saw the stop sign! As what I've said before

" Cry when it really can't be helped, cry when it's helped."

and in addition, this is from Cindy:
" What you think is what you get"

Stop jealousy from conquering our minds..respect and appreciate the person whom we like..especially when we're male.. even though we're being very sensitive in this kind of situation..don't ever lose our respect by forgetting something that we should not forget..

Even though I never had a dream come true, I'll smile and others smile too
Even though I never had a dream come true, I'll laugh and make others laugh too

Even though I never had a dream come true, I'll never forget anything,never..
Cause,that's uncool...
Even though I never had a dream come true...
mada mada dane...



If your life is hard, take it easy..
If your life is too easy, make it hard... - Isnu

12:13 PM(Game set & match)Touch me with your smile

Final exams are coming and I'm loving it..Lol and people who're reading this post or those who've been consoling me through tagboard, yeah thanks and I'm really fine. I've been through from all those obstacles and now I'm living STILL in my waiting life but this time it's different, I will wait but I will always create something new, being innovative, no repetition just to make it interesting and not boring...by making people laugh.

My parents will keep asking me now why nowadays I've been laughing to myself in front of my notebook, lol that's because I've made someone to laugh. Yeah, this will be my style just to conquer the feelings of loneliness,jealousy,worries,etc..

So this is another part of my life that I called falling into darkness in order to find the new light...

But oh well, I'm not that so called moody, thus my blog will not really be that often updated..but for tml..I'll promise to update..haha byeee

10:10 PM(Game set & match)Touch me with your smile

I'll just keep waiting, waiting and wait...

Here's the way I'm overcoming my borelone, through waiting..

Well honestly, how many people down there likes to wait for a very long period? Even creditors think that the earlier their debtors pay the debt, the better it is. But oh well this time is a bit different..

If many do not know why I'm being online for almost of the 24 hours? It's all because of waiting..but firstly I will talk about my waiting life..
Well, firstly will be about the simple waiting, it's common to many though lol. Many should already knew that Wong Isnu Adam is a person who always come way too early and end up waiting many those who are late e.g outtings haha well I'm used to it though, I love to be early, my father always say this to my whole family " It's better to wait rather than making others wait for you". What he's trying to say is, we gain respect from others by being the early-bird, rather than other lose their respect to us for being late..haha well but the saddest thing is some people tend to cancel plan last-minutely and I ended up being disadvantageous..but this mostly came from last minute planning..I'm not angry with them, I always blame myself for being stupid to wait way too early..

Secondly, it's waiting for the time where I can find my permanent happiness. I've been experiencing quite an amount of separations in my life..I'm not sure many people will be able to feel the same as me..although I always tough and treat that separation will just make me stronger..lol I think I need to open my mask in order for your all to see how it feels..back to the permanent happiness..what I'm hoping is something that will really last long..let me tell you a story.. a primary school boy who just separated from his family and due to the characteristic that others might find it uninteresting so he seldom talks to others, but till he reached secondary three level, he finally found his happiness, true friendship..but guess what..just after a year, again I've been separated from that happiness, he moved back to Jakarta, and for your further information, in the same time, he's been separated from his brother too.. this is the first time they separated rooms I think.. Right after that, yet again, he's choosy in friendship, he never really able to hang out with friends who erm well..shan't describe them here..but oh well, guess what..at least he found a new friends but again in Singapore, not so called new though..and he found lotsa things during that holiday but I shall not elaborate here but for sure is,yet again it's another separation, and this makes him to keep waiting,waiting and wait to find his permanent happiness.. constant separation..that's painful..

Lastly, well since I'm being bored and lonely in my room, the thing that I only can do is to wait..wait for my friends to be online..and share their good stories and updates. They went to zoo or cinemas, I'm fine with it though there's tiny jealousy and envied, it's not really a big problem to me. So everyday, I'm waiting,waiting and wait for my friends to be online and make my day happier. But guess what? It's hurtful when your waitings come to nothing..I mean it's like after your all having fun and when you reached home, and you say ''it's fun'' and that's it..oh furthermore, after they all were having fun, sometimes when they reached home, their mood changed, well it's fine if they tell me what changed their mood but the problem is, they are unwilling to tell me..well it's fine and might be a privacy for them..but that makes my brain to guess..and for your further information..i prefer being told rather than guessing.. but oh well sometimes all my waitings come to a naught... disappointing, I was expecting you to share your happiness, not to share your coldness..well sometimes people just love to lie..can people just say " I'm lazy to chat to you" or " I prefer chatting with others",etc..than I will stop bothering these people..I'm fine with it..as long people never tell me beautiful lies..

Oh this is the reason why I'm like onlining 24 hours a day, just to wait to hear good stories from others but end up being the opposite,most of the time..

You see, people won't really care about how I feel here..of course, but imagine if you were me, you will feel something that can make you burst into tears if you're not strong enough..frankly, this is way too much painful..It's not people hurting my feelings, but it's my brain that works as a suicide bomb to myself...tears of loneliness..well heck care people will never care about this..

So again the conclusion is, I will still be waiting, waiting and wait..
Fortunately, I love to wait though it's like sitting on a needle chair..
Even myself still patient enough to wait for an answer..
People said that God loves people who are patient,
but ironically, people won't care about people who are patient enough to wait..
it's pscyhologically true that people will care about themselves, I'm fine with it..
but what happen if you are me? I suggest not but guess what? that's my only supplement of happiness currently..waiting.

I've been waiting, and I've waited and I'll keep waiting, waiting and wait....
but,no one knows...

"A person cares about himself by doing something that people won't care,waiting.."-Isnu

11:00 AM(Game set & match)Touch me with your smile

Erm I'm blogging this during my lecture break and since my notebook is right in front of my eyes..so I've decided to update my blog.

While my friends are enjoying their trips to the zoo currently, I'm just sitting alone in the class envying on how fun going to the zoo is. Oh yes, for your further information, I've not been to the zoo for about 8 years already!! But well envying is not a problem anyway, I'm just worried of small matter that I'm not supposed to expose it here.

Well, just received my accounting test mark and it's disappointing, 89/100 =.=..gosh now I dunno I should be worried for my Accounting final year or not.. its first few chapters are simply an ABC, however, for the last few chapters..it's like calculating 99!(factorial) manually without any calculator..lol.. Oh since I'm talking about accounting marks, so might as well I elaborate more on my studies in this foundation course.. English is fine...my first semester mark got 85/100, Computer studies most unfortunately, the marks are disclosed..for math, it's nightmare.. 60/100..but hey the last few chapters are easy..I love probability and statistics! For accounting, I got 83/100 for semester 1 and lastly management studies I got 94/100 for total average marks of semester one...

Studies is fine, even myself taking it,well..too lightly, but in this past few months before my final exam on the 4-8th June, i can feel the pressure..so that's why I've decided to put aside all my concerns,worries and even feelings.. so my apologies if I've been really irritating especially in Windows Live Messenger..irritating in the way that i'm just replying ''oooh'', ''ic'', etc... but oh well if I'm free, of course I will chat normally...same goes to sms-es..i've been either ignoring or just say I'm busy especially during classes..well people does that to me as well..so it's not really a big problem though...

When I will be reaching home today, I bet there will be no one to chat with..since I predicts that they are still enjoying there...heck care about that..what I'm wondering now is, although my college school is almost over and I will help my dad on his work before I fly to Melbourne.. isn't the same as if I'm going to school every morning and goes home on the evening?, and now it's worse, there will be no classmates. Gosh, this compound of Boredness and Loneliness which I will be calling it as Borelone is still bothering me..and I can't do anything about it but to tell myself to be patient. Can you imagine, I'm like a housewife who is bored and have nothing to at home, so what I do to satisfy myself is goes to mall alone and do some shopping, erm that's spendthriff..but well that's the only way to satisfy myself..even I goes shopping alone..hilarious..
I'd better plan and make sure that IF I happen to go there again, I won't be really that disappointed as what I've always...never mind I'm just always getting irritated when my plans were ruined and that's it..

Back to the after graduated from college part,so..
Anyone please answer me, I will still be alone right?

5:49 PM(Game set & match)Touch me with your smile

It's been awhile since I posted an entry bout my daily life..

Lol..well since my life here in Jakarta is kinda empty, bored of course. 85% of my daily activities is spending time in my room, being infront of my Sony Vaio notebook for at least 8 hours a day. Guess what? Now chatting in Windows Live Messenger is my only solution to overcome my stresses and pressure.

Since I went back from Singapore on that day, lots of confusion happened. To my brain, this particular confusion is a disaster. Love is out of the question, I won't mention that here, maybe next time, but oh well I gotta concentrate on my studies anyway. The main problem is unintentional jealousy, well I never like to have this feeling but damn it! it never goes away from me. This feeling usually reacts when I've heard my friends are having some outtings or even the smallest unecessary case to be jealous of, group study. Well, I'm happy that my friends are having fun.Yes they do laugh and smile, most importantly, having fun..but well nothing can be helped to stop this reaction of mine. I always hoped I hear nothing or worry about their fun but well I always updated myself, too fast indeed. Lol, but currently, I've been trying to calm myself down. Looking at the mirror reflecting my current life as a teenage boy whose satisfaction and fun are taken by some kind of unseen barrier. It's neither from parents nor friends, but loneliness. However, I've always think that if I update myslef on what's going on down there, I can feel that I'm there as well. Guess what? That doesn't really works.

I'm fine actually..

I guess I shall end it here, I'm gonna update bout my cold life next time, which I spent most of it staring in the mirror talking to myself, regretting...


You see, life is full of enemies..
Now, I'm facing the greatest of it..
Myself as the nemesis,
Creating my own catastrophe..


'' I should go and seek some friends..
But, they don't really comprehend..''

Take Me To You Heart-Michael Learns To Rock

10:14 AM(Game set & match)Touch me with your smile

OH NO!

I'm tagged dasar Cin n Mir!!

Here's the rule:

Each person who gets tagged needs to write a blog post of their own 6 or more idiosyncracies as well as clearly state this rule. After stating your own six weirdness you need to choose six people to be tagged and list their names at the bottom of the entry.Don't forget to leave a comment on their tagboards to say you're tagged and tell them to read your blog for more information as to what it means.
Idiosyncracies means a characteristic, habit, mannerism, or the like, that is peculiar to the individual.

1) I does imaginary tennis every night, it's my daily activity of swinging bolster instead of tennis racquet.

2) I'm well known in family for singing loudly on the night before sleeping(my voice sucks)

3) I often get leg cramps when in the middle of my sleep

4) My tummy is so thin but when people see me from the side(or I see myself in the mirror), i do look fat.

5) I got the crave for salad, I can eat three bowls of it, as long there's thousand island for it.

6) When I'm bete(bad mood), I will do some extreme exercises.

7) When I feel I'm short, I will drink 8 glasses of HI-CALCIUM LOW FAT milk a day, plus 200 times of skipping. In addition, 20 times touching the ceiling. I feel much better after that.

8) I always wished that my first girlfriend is the one I'll gonna marry. P.S: I hate infatuation.

9) I always planned things too early!

10) I got the craze for smiles, although myself is selfish about giving smiles. LOL

11) I'm a perfectionist! (ringan sich)

12) My childhood dream is having my honeymoon in Eiffel, Paris.

13) I hate violence though I'm quite violent in hitting tennis balls. LOL

14) I prefer alphabet to number.

15) I hate to make girls feel guilty while actually I got alot of things to make them feel guilt.

16) I hate MikroletS while I'm driving, they don't how to PARK and STOP their car properly. (oh I've once shouted ''bullshit'' after they suddenly stopped their car for just freaking waiting for their passengers)

17) I hate BajajS while I'm driving, they are just too siput and they're too selfish to move aside.

18) I love making quotes.

19) I'm afraid to face the ghost of you..

And noww... I'm gonna tag:

1) Eric! yg blognya penuh dgn mashimaro

2) Steffi! juga boleh

3) Wilona!

4) Anthony!

5) Jenny! tulis di real-life diary loe yach! =)

12:24 PM(Game set & match)Touch me with your smile